Amelia's Shades of reflection

An year before I was myself, but now I have to think who I'm, it is time that I bring up the old crazy self....to be the whom I want to be....none will understand these words...as it is mystic enough to be a mystery as always!!....looking back..it was an year which made me someone I can't yet see clearly....it is indeed time to shake things of my head...to smile again,to laugh again.............that is what I really am!!..... HAPPY NEW YEAR WELCOME  2013!! HURRAY!

  It is like a bestfriend but more. It’s the one person in the world that knows you the best. That someone who makes you a better person. No, actually they don’t make you a better person. You do that by yourself because they inspire you. someone you carry with you forever. It’s one person who knew you, accepted you and believed in you before any one else would. And no matter what happens, you’ll always love them and nothing could ever change that.........whom am I talking about?

When my eyes close, I see many things I see what my future brings...'mystery'.. When my eyes close, I feel many things Sometimes the pain of heartbreak....'regrets'.. Other times enlightenment......'full of energy'.. When my eyes close, I imagine I imagine what was, would could, what is, what can be...'interpretations' When my eyes close, colors appear They take over in my mind for what seems like years....'imaginations' When my eyes open, dreams awake...'decisions'  And it’s the start to another day When my eyes close, I breathe out every dysfunctional, disturbing thought Remembering to let go of the dreamer that so often gets lost.........it is out of my control!!

 The playlist is somber and she keeps it that way because there is sadness in her she can’t quite figure. The source is a blur of a reason she can’t quite pinpoint. All she really knows is that she is sad and she’s too weak to get up from the floor to search for it like a women. Not that she needs to know it, she’s quite content of the sadness because most times it’s all she has besides emotions of anger, regret and desperation...... Lingering in this cloud of emotion is comforting, she would like to think.....She opens her eyes and realizes: she’s alive. She could live life again and that’s one sad reason to be happy.

listening to music... the words unsaid... translating it to world so unknown...but everything is so clear there...

hey hey.......u.......I waana say this The beats are slow I feel like an empty glass... Miles between us It looks like why.?......... i feel the music of our separation played... while me sitting alone....

To my Caroline, You’re probably thinking I’ve forgotten all about you by now, but that’s far from it. The promises I made  still linger my thoughts. I never really told you my fondness, and for that I really get down on my knees with all my love! I found you, so I started breathing You became the light of my darkest days It was just a matter of timings that I fell for you, 'coz you never did anything, but whatever you did was enchanting,  bringing smile on my face,  an extra beat to my heart, a rush!!  I have missed you every waking day and my heart still hurts, but I’m getting better. For you showed me the one in me that I never deciphered till I believed  in you.  I continue to smile and still go on without you.  I know I do miss you, but I have kept it all inside of me,only for me to know.  I still wonder about your doings, how you are, what you’re doing, what we used to talk about, to the laugh in your voice, just...