Amelia's Shades of reflection

If in a single moment you find yourself happy, truly happy, pause. Take note of that moment, find what made you happy and commit it to memory. Remember that feeling of being lighter than you were 5 minutes ago, where your heart is soaring, and anything is possible.This is life, right now. It’s beauty, love, lost love, denial, acceptance, darkness, rekindled fire, and alas, a loss of life through a loss of love, decorated with numerous metaphors and allegory, which is simply beautiful. Perfection. Mistakes. Ideas. Dreams. So many new avenues. carpe diem!

I’m unfulfilled. I’m craving something… I feel a little lost. There are so many things I want to do in my life and I’m creating a bucket list. I feel choked, like I’m lacking time and money. I have the perfect avenue for me to gain both of these ever important, elusive things but I have no idea where to start. I have so many thoughts, ideas, questions rumbling around my head and I just can’t deci pher them into something meaningful for me to express. I don’t know who to ask or what to ask. I don’t know what avenues I can take to get to where I want to go. I feel suffocated in a way, like all these amazing possibilities are slightly out of reach. I’m on a mission to discover what makes me happy. By learning more about myself and overcoming my fear of judgement and rejection will I be better equipped to pursue my dreams fearlessly and tenaciously. What’s holding me back? What can I do to get to where I want to be? What are my higher values? What are my passions? How c

when all these feelings of frustration come over me and I need to calm down… where are you now? when I sit alone thinking about life and all the things I’d like to tell you… what are you doing? I’m not thinking about the past, just those promises that I promised to keep. I just wanna know what you’re up to… I wanna know where you’ve been. and, well, if there’s someone new…I’d wanna know that too. at least then, I’d be in your life as a friend and not a stranger. because I don’t like the way it is right now. best friend, I get that we didn’t work out right now. but I don’t get why you left my side. and I  don’t get why you decided not to care. but most of all, I don’t get why every story we swore would never apply to us… now somehow does. P.S: This is for my best friend Anjali I miss her so much....

I really appreciate honest music. And, that comes from how the music is portrayed and how it is projected by the musician. It’s not necessary to be 100% technically accurate (even though it’s a big plus)— it’s important to have substance and to let the audience know that the music is truly being played from the heart and through genuine feelings. It can sound perfectly in tune and rhythmically accurate, but if it has ‘nothing’ beneath all of that flashiness… I just don’t appreciate it. Of course, all of this requires practice, and with practice comes the technical and the musical ability.

Underneath it all… all the striving and struggle, trying and vying, heartache, hiding and pain… There is love. Pure love is what each of us is at the core… Love cannot be measured and neither can you… If you want to know who you really really are, don’t listen to your flesh (false self/ego)… There is no love there. No truth there either. The ego is on the measurement system of comparison. The ego blocks love & intimacy. The ego is only concerned with obtaining worth and value externally. The ego is the wrong path to fulfillment, freedom & wholeness. The ego promises but doesn’t deliver. It is built on the lie that you can add to your own value, but you can’t. It’s impossible. You are love and love cannot be measured!!! You just are… Open your eyes to see with your Spirit. Get honest. Face yourself. It is through facing yourself (good & bad) with kindness, compassion & equality (not greater than or less than) that you will discover this truth. You